Emily, a 24 year old woman who lives in Belgium, has been suffering from a serious mental disorder since she was only three years old. She didn't know why she existed, and thought "I don't wanna be here." When she was thirteen, she started thinking about suicide, and hurt herself over and over. She couldn't find a reason to live. So she decided to be euthanized in Belgium, in which death with dignity is legal for people who suffer from "an incurable or terminal illness". After going through so many times of counseling, she was approved to be euthanized. It was because she injured herself so many times and she was truly despairing about living her life. Doctors told her that she could cancel it whenever if she wants, and the last day of her life came. In the end, she chose not to die. She says "I couldn't. I have to fight with myself again." Even though she decided not to die, her case shows that living is hars...